hi

i havent written anything on here in like 6 months, but I'm backkkkk and here to do some wriitng and stuff.

i got so into making youtube videos earlier this year, but it was also just a really rough time. I had some falling out with some friends, and it made me really scared of looking stupid.

i can definitely get caught up in my own insecurity. the idea that I wasn't a perfect friend or artist felt like something I could fix by just being really picky about how I acted and what I made.

I felt stupid for trying to act like people cared what I was doing, because part of me felt like it wasn't super "artsy" to vlog, or that I was trying to be an "influencer" when really it was just making stuff for the sake of making it.